There’s a feeling that comes up for a lot of people around Christmas sometimes it’s guilt, and sometimes it’s real panic. I know that panic well. I’ve spent much of my life in scarcity and survival mode. For years, Christmas meant stress and uncertainty, and more often than not, gifts only happened because someone helped me. That kind of experience and pain doesn’t disappear just because circumstances change. This year is different. Not perfect, not unlimited but different. I