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Wow. Little me is so happy right now. I’m walking during Fashion Week this February in NYC… an event where I’ll be in the fashion capital of the world, walking the runway in the spotlight the way I always dreamed of! When I pause and really feel this moment, I imagine sitting at a table with little Kiwi. She’s wide-eyed, hopeful, dreaming big, a SUPERSTAR! And across from her is the woman I’m becoming.. The superstar version of me is finally experiencing her dreams, the exper

This morning, I noticed my mind moving fast before my body felt fully awake. Instead of trying to stop I go within asking why. I’m becoming aware of when my nervous system is activated and choosing to slow it down rather than letting it run the show. When I notice that feeling kicking in, I pause. I ground myself in what’s actually happening in the moment. I slow my breathing. I tap through it (EFT). I move my body. This isn’t about being calm all the time. It’s about interru

Tonight my heart is full of gratitude for my Memaw. She’s my best friend in the whole world. My right hand. My partner in crime. We’ve traveled everywhere together … through so many states, autism walks, big moves, and even all the way to Florida. I truly wouldn’t have been able to do any of it without her. Not a single piece. Whether it was helping me with the girls, stepping in financially when we needed it, or just being someone to talk to when life felt overwhelming … she

I am less than six months away from the life I’ve always dreamed of. I saw a video yesterday that really resonated with me, it said: What if you’re only six months away? You’re so close … it’s right there. All you have to do is show up every day like her. That message really landed for me. I’ve never felt as aligned as I do now. I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, and for the first time, it feels real … not distant or out of reach. I know I am her, just in t

This morning I woke up feeling irritated, negative, and heavy. The kind of feeling where you immediately notice what you didn’t do instead of what you did. I had been sick yesterday, so I rested. I didn’t want to clean. I didn’t do the dishes. And when I woke up today, my mind told me I was behind, failing, and overwhelmed before the day even started. As I sat with it, journaling and reflecting, something shifted. I realized I’m actually not that behind. I rested because I ne

Today started like most days do… awake, aware, and quietly questioning the same thing I’ve been questioning for a while now: Why does money still feel hard? I could feel that the issue wasn’t strategy or effort. It was my beliefs. Somewhere in me lived the idea that I’m poor, that I don’t know how to make large amounts of money on my own, and that survival has always required support from outside myself. When I looked honestly, I could see it wasn’t just mine, it was inherite

When I saw this exact, gorgeous, photo I could instantly see myself, my immediate potential. This is the life I am aligning with. There is no really no observable difference between her and I. Really, it’s nothing but location and quality of clothes. I have faux fur coats and vegan leather gloves. I am beautiful, healthy, and confident. And in this exact moment, I realize the level I’ve reached in my self-worth journey. I am so very close to the woman I’ve been striving to be

There are 12 days left until the New Year, and instead of waiting for January 1st, I’m choosing to start now. I just watched a video by Mel Robbins, and something she said really stuck with me: You don’t become the person you want to be by waiting. You become her by acting like her. And that’s exactly what I’m doing. Over the next 12 days, I’m not “setting resolutions.” I’m practicing being the version of myself I want to carry into the New Year. This is about developing dedi

This morning I’m sitting relaxed, a touch bored I asked ChatGPT to tell me something interesting. Just a fun fact to pass the time, that I would be interested in. And today, it told me this: Apparently, our brains are most open to change during periods of transition … not when life is stable, but when something feels a little unsteady. A move. A relationship shift. A career pivot. A change in routine. A quiet internal “something doesn’t fit anymore” moment. It turns out that

There’s a feeling that comes up for a lot of people around Christmas sometimes it’s guilt, and sometimes it’s real panic. I know that panic well. I’ve spent much of my life in scarcity and survival mode. For years, Christmas meant stress and uncertainty, and more often than not, gifts only happened because someone helped me. That kind of experience and pain doesn’t disappear just because circumstances change. This year is different. Not perfect, not unlimited but different. I

“The moment you declare who you are, you will attract everything you are not … In the absence of that which you are not, that what you are is not.” How do you know exactly who you are? You learn who you are through experience. Through contrast. Through situations that make you pause and say, no… I don’t like that. Or this doesn’t feel right. Or I want better than this. That’s discernment. It’s realizing your standards by living through things not by writing a list or pretendi

Wednesday morning, I woke up already feeling aligned. No pressure. No internal debate. Just that quiet pull to start my day with intention. I aligned right back in with my morning routine. Started with affirmations and gentle body movement, followed by a great workout. I had some tea, and eased into the day. In my state of alignment and flow the ease continued through the day and I was able to get all I wanted done and more. It reminded me how alignment actually shows up for

Good morning. It’s early, it’s cold, and the snow outside feels like permission to stay exactly where I am. I woke up around 5:30, awake enough to start a day, but not quite convinced I need to. I’m sitting with that familiar tug-of-war: part of me knows I could get up, throw on a workout, stack habits, “win the morning.” And another part of me is tired. Could be lazy, partially tired. Burnt out from constantly trying to show up, push forward, or do something. Yesterday was

There comes a moment in growth where everything looks stable, yet something inside feels quietly unresolved. Nothing is wrong, but something isn’t fully right either. Safety can feel like success, especially after seasons of chaos. Predictability soothes the nervous system. Calm feels earned. And in that relief, it’s easy to mistake peace for fulfillment. But safety and alignment are not the same thing. Safety grounds you. Alignment expands you. One offers comfort; the other

Whenever my mind starts spiraling or my body feels tight, tapping is the quickest way for me to bring myself back down. It’s simple, it’s grounding, and it just helps me feel like… okay, I can keep going. You don’t have to be an expert. You don’t have to “do it right.” Tapping basically sends your nervous system a calm little message like, “Hey, you’re safe. You can chill.” And honestly, for someone with anxiety I need that. Your breath gets deeper, your shoulders drop, and y

Raising daughters while becoming myself is a journey I never expected to be so intertwined. Every day, the work I do to understand my boundaries, my emotions, and my self-worth doesn’t just shape me, it shapes the way I mother. I didn’t grow up with emotional support or patience, so I’m learning those things as I go. Offering them to my girls even as I learn how to offer them to myself. Some days I’m overwhelmed. Some days I’m proud. Some days I’m healing old parts of me simp